fasting

fasting for a christian in singapore is always a tough thing to do, as there are always temptations. but these days how do we discipline ourselves?



eating in this part of the world is not just for sustenance, but for enjoyment. we have the luxury of choice even when we are hungry and we will never be on starvation so bad that we will feel weak and dependent. in our minds maybe but definitely not physically. it just shows how weak minded we are.



sitting in the cofeebean just finished a sumptous breakfast, the chapter of fasting came. how apt. and God knows how much I need to be disciplined.



I failed in my previous fasting missions because at the back of my head, I know I will be slimmer after that. wrong motivation. this time round, it will be about discipline. it will be milestone for me to look back on and say "I can do it." rather than "I look great!".



ironically funny that this comes on the 1st day of the Islamic new year. God has a sense of humour.

history in singapore

today's the day when singapore votes for our next president. don't even remember off hand how many president we have since.



4 Tans in the race with many people thinking TT sure cannot make it. but my $ is on him even though I think ALL of them cannot be president. then again thinking about the role and capacity of our president, I think st jame's muthy also can do it, as "endorsed" by one of the children.



may the best (least devil of all) Tan win.

lost everything while pursuing nothing

physical blindness is a bad thing. currently suffering from "water in retina" in my right eye and I know how it feels to have your vision distorted. its very inconvenient and I'm not even totally blind yet.



however there may be a worse kind of blindness. spiritual blindness. the failure to see the Great Treasure of heavenly and eternal things, as written in Pst Ed Chan's book Growing Deep in Faith.



most of us especially singaporeans are very caught up with getting the material stuffs. so much that we are willing to sacrifice priorities in life just to gain that monetary advantage and in turn, get material luxuries. and the more we are into it, the more we turn away from what is perhaps more important in life. family, relationships and all the so called intangible things on earth. and worst, we become poor spiritually. we drift away from God while thinking God is with us and blessing us with so much earthly goods.



am I suffering from spiritual blindness?

been a while since

I last posted because of distraction from games and daily living. plus haven't done too much spiritually and in fact going downhill in terms of attendance. sunday attendance sporadic at best because of laziness.



finally finished pst Ed Chan's book Growing Deep in God. its very important to have a heart of gratitude and thanksgiving in all things.



God has already answered our prayers even before we asked. but in the "bad" things, can we truly remember to give thanks?



I know for sure that my condition in the brain is not a sudden occurence. I just pray that God be merciful enough to let it be manageable at this stage. will find out on 21st sept.

trust in the Lord

with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5.



water in retina, cyst in brain and various health problems. and 2011 is also the year of the bunny. local belief system will "logically" explain that the supernatural force of the zodiac is at work.



but my belief system tells me that the supernatural Will of God is at work. and I'm trusting that it is.