oh my Saviour my Lord and Friend.
the song blasting from the speakers of the computer beside me at this unearthly hour.
been a mixed week.
1) started this blog and a start of a new journey of journaling for my christian walk. of course it's not substantial but its a start and hopefully it would be more daily than it is right now before it becomes less frequent, much like my other resolutions I made more than 3 months ago.
2) sick sick sick. almost missed the cg on saturday but I guess I'm glad we made it and even for today's sunday svc.
through these, I want to give thanks to the Lord for keeping me strong.
as a pragmatic (learnt the word today which basically means practical) person, I guess I do things with a purpose and most of the time I desire maximum efficiency. it even shows in my gaming. just get to the achievements with the least amount of fuss and the max throughput. of course achievements may be subjective it they are not spelt out clearly. eg, the Smurf Village game on iOS.
some play it aesthetically. I play it to get to the max level with the max amount of game currency possible.
its dangerous to miss the point and especially so for me or even people like me, pragmatic. too easy to be anthropocentric (man-centered) rather than theocentric (God-centered).
Sunday, 27 March 2011
Friday, 25 March 2011
if you can
ask God one question, what would it be?
got me thinking. coz I don't know what to ask Him. I'm like imagining some people would ask scientific questions like where does the universe end? were dinosaurs real?
or emotional ones like "is happy with You?".
even for punters, "4D numbers for the next draw?"
I think I won't ask questions. I'm guessing either I would know ALL answers to ALL the mortal level questions I have the minute I step over the pearly gates, or, God can make it like a game for me in heaven and I have to go search them out! Would be fun!
either way, I'm not asking Him anything. I'm just going to say, "Thank You God.".
got me thinking. coz I don't know what to ask Him. I'm like imagining some people would ask scientific questions like where does the universe end? were dinosaurs real?
or emotional ones like "is
even for punters, "4D numbers for the next draw?"
I think I won't ask questions. I'm guessing either I would know ALL answers to ALL the mortal level questions I have the minute I step over the pearly gates, or, God can make it like a game for me in heaven and I have to go search them out! Would be fun!
either way, I'm not asking Him anything. I'm just going to say, "Thank You God.".
Thursday, 24 March 2011
Wednesday, 23 March 2011
pray pray pray!
from the book Growing Deeper in God. after the 1st 2 chapters, pst chan emphasized again and again the importance of prayer. Jesus himself committed to prayer again and again in the bible. even the Son of God is committed to a life of prayer what more us!
the title of the 1st chapter amused me a little. God of the how much more. what did pst chan mean? intrigued I read more and indeed our God is a God of how much more. in context, Jesus taught a principle that if your child ask from you a fish, would you give a snake? of course not. and how much more God would not and even exceed your request.
Prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance; it is believing in a God who hears, answers and even exceeds our prayers!
also
Prayer is not about you - prayer is all about God! It is not about how deep or how great your prayer is, or how long or eloquent your prayer is. Prayer is all about who God is!
it got me thinking about my own life. I regularly ask myself, why do I find myself lacking? in everything. I am not successful, nor rich. not healthy. but as a believer, shouldn't I be more concerned with my spiritual health, which is feeble at best?
in this society especially in singapore, hard not to go after material things. had not to compare achievements with peers and friends. what's worse is I'm not even a good church goer.
from chapter 2, the significance of prayer. Until we are desperate that we have nothing, prayer is merely incidental, or at best, supplemental in our lives - but it will never be fundamental.
we often turn to prayer and God only when we are in need. when we are desperate. God knows that if I am too comfortable with worldly things, I will drift further away from spiritual things.
until I can let go God will never bless me in that area.
"God, You are the creator of the computer, the luxury items, everything. I ask for the wisdom and understanding that this is the truth and no 2 ways about it. I sincerely want to stop seeking worldly possessions and start building treasures in heaven. I acknowledge that my life is a mess and I want to straighten it starting with my relationship with You. I acknowledge that You are my spiritual Father, the creator of heaven and earth. I can't fool You. I can't run and so I'm surrendering this life. make it worthwhile and make it count towards the kingdom of heaven. I can't do it by my own strength. I ask for divine strength and wisdom. Thank You God. Amen."
the title of the 1st chapter amused me a little. God of the how much more. what did pst chan mean? intrigued I read more and indeed our God is a God of how much more. in context, Jesus taught a principle that if your child ask from you a fish, would you give a snake? of course not. and how much more God would not and even exceed your request.
Prayer is not overcoming God's reluctance; it is believing in a God who hears, answers and even exceeds our prayers!
also
Prayer is not about you - prayer is all about God! It is not about how deep or how great your prayer is, or how long or eloquent your prayer is. Prayer is all about who God is!
it got me thinking about my own life. I regularly ask myself, why do I find myself lacking? in everything. I am not successful, nor rich. not healthy. but as a believer, shouldn't I be more concerned with my spiritual health, which is feeble at best?
in this society especially in singapore, hard not to go after material things. had not to compare achievements with peers and friends. what's worse is I'm not even a good church goer.
from chapter 2, the significance of prayer. Until we are desperate that we have nothing, prayer is merely incidental, or at best, supplemental in our lives - but it will never be fundamental.
we often turn to prayer and God only when we are in need. when we are desperate. God knows that if I am too comfortable with worldly things, I will drift further away from spiritual things.
until I can let go God will never bless me in that area.
"God, You are the creator of the computer, the luxury items, everything. I ask for the wisdom and understanding that this is the truth and no 2 ways about it. I sincerely want to stop seeking worldly possessions and start building treasures in heaven. I acknowledge that my life is a mess and I want to straighten it starting with my relationship with You. I acknowledge that You are my spiritual Father, the creator of heaven and earth. I can't fool You. I can't run and so I'm surrendering this life. make it worthwhile and make it count towards the kingdom of heaven. I can't do it by my own strength. I ask for divine strength and wisdom. Thank You God. Amen."
first!
after attending the ACK conference, I am more convicted in pst edmund chan's and cefc theology. I am impressed and believe that he is right and on to something most of us are not; the importance of fundamentals.
of course you can tell this to any faithful and God-fearing christians and they will agree with all their hearts. but just like pst edmund chan said, there is a distinct difference between believe and being convicted.
you can agree but you may not put it into action. faith without action is dead. james 2:17
some of the things emphasized in the church are of course prayer and journals. both of which I am going to start, and hence the blog.
be blessed, future me!
from, 23rd march me.
of course you can tell this to any faithful and God-fearing christians and they will agree with all their hearts. but just like pst edmund chan said, there is a distinct difference between believe and being convicted.
you can agree but you may not put it into action. faith without action is dead. james 2:17
some of the things emphasized in the church are of course prayer and journals. both of which I am going to start, and hence the blog.
be blessed, future me!
from, 23rd march me.
Thursday, 17 March 2011
what a thursday
started off with a bad morning of me verbally tendering my resignation to my boss aka father-in-law. what's worse is its out of emotion.
followed by the monotonous and heavy-hearted day which I think I didn't smile at all. then dragged my darling wife from her comfort at home and made her even more sick.
took an afternoon nap before ending the day off with our 1st ever christian conference together in cefc and come out feeling poked, at least for myself.
memorable enough for a post here, for all digital eternity.
followed by the monotonous and heavy-hearted day which I think I didn't smile at all. then dragged my darling wife from her comfort at home and made her even more sick.
took an afternoon nap before ending the day off with our 1st ever christian conference together in cefc and come out feeling poked, at least for myself.
memorable enough for a post here, for all digital eternity.
Saturday, 12 March 2011
*hint hint*
"what would you like for your birthday?"
wife (who is celebrating soon) replied, "I don't know. I don't have a wish list."
some (or perhaps most) people have one or more of the following: a wish list, shopping list, bucket list, friends&/enemies list and the worst of all, to-do.
I have a small friends one on facebook and even smaller irl because I don't quite keep in touch with ne1. I do not have an official wish/bucket list because it's too volatile factored by health: financial and physical. (scratching off buying a fire engine-red ferrari and driving said ferrari down into the sea)
perhaps the most common (and my longest) would be the to-do. it's like the universe as discovered recently; endless and expanding at a faster rate than imagined.
we need lists such as above to keep us going. to stay focus on our prize(s), to help us remember things to accomplish, etc. these earthly things will affect our decisions, our choices and shape our lives accordingly.
question for myself is "do I want to evolve around ipad2/a dive into the darkest and deepest caverns? or do I want to centre my life on God?"
not a tough question but a tough to-do. that's one more to my list but going right to the top.
wife (who is celebrating soon) replied, "I don't know. I don't have a wish list."
some (or perhaps most) people have one or more of the following: a wish list, shopping list, bucket list, friends&/enemies list and the worst of all, to-do.
I have a small friends one on facebook and even smaller irl because I don't quite keep in touch with ne1. I do not have an official wish/bucket list because it's too volatile factored by health: financial and physical. (scratching off buying a fire engine-red ferrari and driving said ferrari down into the sea)
perhaps the most common (and my longest) would be the to-do. it's like the universe as discovered recently; endless and expanding at a faster rate than imagined.
we need lists such as above to keep us going. to stay focus on our prize(s), to help us remember things to accomplish, etc. these earthly things will affect our decisions, our choices and shape our lives accordingly.
question for myself is "do I want to evolve around ipad2/a dive into the darkest and deepest caverns? or do I want to centre my life on God?"
not a tough question but a tough to-do. that's one more to my list but going right to the top.
Tuesday, 8 March 2011
being thankful
over the last few days/weeks, things haven't been going very well for me.
probably started during the cny period where everything (or most) seems to be going against my will.
1) relatively quiet and tamed cny celebration (stupid bunny year)
2) work overload (work work work)
3) pay cut (bonus)
4) modem failing (starhub/modem)
5) lemon purchases (modem)
6) challenging customers (253 CCK)
7) family not helping (my extended)
8) health deterioration (back spasm and swollen eyes)
all these right up till yesterday (of this post).
but this morning, I compared myself to some people in the world. I have the basic necessities. I have a job that I can make my own time. I'm not exactly poor until I cannot afford a nice steak in botak jones. I'm considered fortunate enough.
my eyes are almost back to normal at this writing. I bought panaflex for my back. I manage to survive the morning work. weather was nice and cool after a night of rain.
thank You God.
probably started during the cny period where everything (or most) seems to be going against my will.
1) relatively quiet and tamed cny celebration (stupid bunny year)
2) work overload (work work work)
3) pay cut (bonus)
4) modem failing (starhub/modem)
5) lemon purchases (modem)
6) challenging customers (253 CCK)
7) family not helping (my extended)
8) health deterioration (back spasm and swollen eyes)
all these right up till yesterday (of this post).
but this morning, I compared myself to some people in the world. I have the basic necessities. I have a job that I can make my own time. I'm not exactly poor until I cannot afford a nice steak in botak jones. I'm considered fortunate enough.
my eyes are almost back to normal at this writing. I bought panaflex for my back. I manage to survive the morning work. weather was nice and cool after a night of rain.
thank You God.
Saturday, 5 March 2011
to do
for today, the 5th day of March in the year 2011.
1) go crazy in starcraft
2) down 5 cups of coffee, my own cup
3) work? hmmmm ok.
1) go crazy in starcraft
2) down 5 cups of coffee, my own cup
3) work? hmmmm ok.
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